We’re Still Here.

10 points and a brownie(no joke) to the person who can tell me where these lyrics came from:

Now that we’re here,
Now that we’ve come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

We’re still here, and I finally breathed a sigh of relief.  For 3 weeks I felt like I was holding my breath and yesterday evening I finally took a breath.  A stable, deep breath.  It’s done.

I actually feel like picking up my camera, sewing something, smiling and stepping over.  Maybe it’s that, I finally feel that I actually can.


I got to talk to Richard this morning and that made me smile.  Then Katie reminded me that Fish Bowl is this Friday and my smile got bigger.  I hope that Ryan wants to go because I would love to share that with him.  He is trying to teach me about football and Katie pointed out that there is a Football For Dummies out there.  I find that SUPER funny, but not so surprising.  There’s probably a Break Dancing For Dummies too.

Well I’m off to get ready for my day.  Deep breaths.  Keep smiling (butter face) 🙂

Published in: on September 30, 2008 at 4:03 pm  Comments (5)  
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Details In the Fabric.

I am constantly amazed how much music influences my life.  I’m a girl and when I am going through something rough, I turn to music.  It’s been a while since I have listened to lyrics and really felt something from them.  With everything that has been goin on, this song is what helped me through.  It’s beautiful, powerful and I hope that it can help someone else.

Details In the Fabric

Jason Mraz

Published in: on September 28, 2008 at 6:36 pm  Comments (2)  

Dancing in the rain:)

Yesterday was a great day.  Ryan and I had a kid free night and day.  It was awesome!  Now I love my kiddos dearly, but it was so nice to not change a diaper, get a juice box, trip over toys, break up a fight or bribe anyone.

We got to hang out and be reminded of us for once.  We got up late, ate breakfast at noon and then headed over to the store because I need a new headlight.  While I was there I found the BEST thing EVER!  Now anyone who knew me in high school can remember 2 things about me.  Well probably more things, but these are the thing that stand out.  I have LONG hair and I ALWAYS had Dr. Pepper Lip Smacker on me 🙂 They brought back the HUGE tubes again!  I literally squealed and grabbed the last package.  Ryan looked at me like I was a nutso until he saw what it was.  Apparently I was still using it when we first started dating and even while we were married.  I think I only stopped because I got pregnant with Kaleb.  I of course will get a picture later!

Then we headed home and Ryan fixed my headlight.  I tried watching for a little bit, but got bored by the time he was undoing the 5th bolt to take the battery off.  It takes 6 bolts to hold that bad boy on my car btw.  Light got fixed though!  I had lost interest and went inside to finish my Sex and the City movie.  It was good and I feel like I got a little more closure than when it ended.

After that we chilled at home and Ryan watched Mortal Combat, which I made fun of, because really it is a silly movie:)

We got hungry again because of all non child activities 😉 and I needed foil so we headed out to the store.  We ended up buying some apple pie and of course you need ice cream!  Then miracles of miracles happened.  4 years ago when we lived in Nantucket, Edy’s ice cream came out with a seasonal flavor.  Apple Pie ice cream.  They NEVER brought it back, because we have seriously looked, EVERY year.  They brought it back!  We both jumped and ended up buying 3 of them.  Ryan went to grab another one, but  I was laughing so hard I was almost crying and people were clearing out of the aisle.  I’m pretty sure they all though we were high or something, but WE GOT APPLE PIE ICE CREAM!  It was SO good btw and I wanted to get pictures, but maybe next time.  NOM, NOM, NOM!

Tonight I am getting my hair cut and then tomorrow, Ryan and I are going out on a date.  Dinner and a movie.  He won’t tell me where we are going to go eat though!  I’m excited 🙂

I promise I’ll get pictures of the Lip Smacker 🙂

Published in: on September 26, 2008 at 5:56 pm  Comments (1)  
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It’s Amazing Where You Find Yourself.

Another rough couple of weeks for my family, but we made it  We made it.

A few things I’ve learned:

NEVER underestimate yourself even if other underestimate you.

Fight for what’s fighting for.


Ask for help.

Friends are there for you, no matter what time of day.  No matter what

Follow your heart.




Let go and let God.

A few things I’ve learned about myself:

I am stronger than I ever thought.

I don’t back down from a fight.

That faced with an overwhelming situation, that I still have reason.

That I can love with all my heart and not just with the pieces that I thought were left behind.

That I  will NEVER underestimate myself, ever again.

Here’s to Love, Hope and Faith.  Here’s to making many more happy memories.

Published in: on September 23, 2008 at 6:57 pm  Comments (1)  
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Back to your regular blogging schedual!

Sorry for the long blog break.  Me and my family haave been going through something.  Thank you for all your kind words 🙂  So I am getting back on the blogging wagon!  Be sure to check back for a huge picture post of our Labor Day aquarium visit.  The kiddos had a lot of fun on the trip and were really great in the car.  Until then I leave you with this picture of miss Lilli.  She likes to dress herself.  I can kind of see where she was going with this.  But what’s with the goggles and shoes kid?

Published in: on September 12, 2008 at 5:09 pm  Comments (1)  
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